2020 will go down as most people's worst year ever, me on the other hand will remember it as one of the most interesting years ever! I've already had worse years than 2020, the year before I quit drinking and the 2 years after I quit drinking were my worst. So why was 2020 so [...]
Death is all around me…
Everyday... Everyday... Everyday!!!! Everyday I think about dying, what the hell is up with that, everyday I wonder what happens when I die and this has been on my mind for a lot of years, I just can't comprehend what happens to me after I die. Do we have a soul and we go to [...]
Sweetgrass
I did not write this and I have no idea where I got it from or who wrote it but, I think it is an important lesson. SWEETGRASS The elders tell us that it takes longer for us to heal today and the reason is because the old trails our ancestors used to use to [...]
Being myself with nature!!
Summer.
Summer is here, my favorite time of the year, well to be honest autumn is my favorite time of the year with all the colors and the smells, but, autumn means winter is next so I prefer summer. Summer means wearing shorts and pantyhose wherever I go, it is a amazing feeling and I am [...]
In a hole and can’t get out!
Soooooo... what the hell is going on in here.... hellooòoo is there anyone in here, hmmmm, no answer, She's been hiding in here for about a month and a half now and I have no idea what she wants, all I know is that she is driving me crazy!! So much sorrow in here [...]
Southern Comfort & Christmas…
So I'm not sure if any of you have ever heard of the Southern Comfort Conference, it is a huge Transgender conference down in Fort Lauderdale Florida, I heard of it many years ago but didn't really know much about it until last year when I found out that it was on the [...]
Who Am I?
So who am I...I am a 55 year old married man with 2 grown children and 3 grandchildren, I love my family, they are my world, without them I doubt I would have made it this far in life and probably would have *snuffed myself out many years ago. We all have paths in our [...]
Burns & Cutting, Relieving Pain With Pain…
There are reasons why people cut, for me I cut to relieve pain, that may sound silly but believe me, it worked! https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/overcoming-self-sabotage/201001/cutting-escape-emotional-pain When I was 18 I met my first cutter, he was around my age or a year or 2 younger, it's been a lot of years so I don't remember much [...]
Hiding
Dec 4 2018 There is one thing that you learn over the years of being a crossdresser, hiding your under dressing. You always have to be aware of your clothing, I wear a bra everyday and love every second of it but sometimes I often wonder if people can see my bra lines through [...]